For Creativity Challenge Day 32: prayer
Love With A Capital L
Okay, I’ll admit it, I’m afraid of the darkness that swirls around me. That seemingly is overtaking the people of this country. Tearing it apart, creating divisions that corrupt decisions that are needed to correct our trajectory.
And what trajectory would that be?
I’m not sure. Wholeness? That which binds us together, because we seem to be ripping apart at the seams. Slinging derogatory remarks, name-calling, ugly words, acts of hatred, and ignorance.
And what is ignorance?
Unknowing? Chosen or otherwise? A lack of wanting to know something different from what is known. Only a partial image, rather than the whole picture.
And what would cause this lack of wanting to know?
Fear. Fear of Other. Fear of what is different, therefore unknown.
And the hatred?
Fear magnified. Multiplied, as one fear is piled upon another, and the need to strike out becomes the only action that might diminish the fear and all those feelings it brings. Might release them.
And does striking out release them?
Yes. On some levels, but only in the moment. It satisfies that need for action, but also does lots of harm and damage to others, as well as to self.
And have you ever acted on hatred?
And do you still do so?
No. At least, I try not to.
And why do you try?
Because I learned something from those actions. As I said, the release was only temporary. Only in the moment. But, then it called for more, sort of like a promise. It was as though the hate could only feed on more hate, more hurtful actions. But, the momentary release was always only momentary. And the pain of watching myself become something I never wanted to be, lasted so much longer.
And what was it that you never wanted to be?
Someone who hurt others, found some sort of sick satisfaction in seeing the pain in their eyes, but then, was shocked to find it in my own.
And this pain taught you?
Yes. I learned about anger, how easily it can turn to hatred. Learned that it has no end, except destruction. Not just of Other, but of self.
And to what did you turn instead?
To Love, with a capital L.
And what is Love with a capital L?
Well, there is love, the ordinary everyday feelings of fondness we have for family and friends, and our spouses. Sometimes for the world itself and all the wonders it holds. Love with a capital L, is The All. The Universe and all of its differences, all of its shades from darkness to light.
And now, we have returned to that darkness you mentioned at the beginning.
Yes. Because Love with a capital L is so much harder to do than anger and hate, which only feeds on the darkness of unknowing.
And why is this Love with a capital L, so much more difficult?
Because hatred is only a diffused sort of light, blurred and fuzzy at best. It defines only what is seen, and seeks only to destroy it. While Love, with a capital L, is a glaring, but warm spotlight. It begins within, first defining one soul, and then works outward to define the soul of All.
And why does it begin with only one soul?
Because Love, with a capital L, is faith. And faith is the belief in that which
is unseen. It begins in the rich dark soil of a soul, but must be nurtured by
further acts of faith.
And what are these further acts of faith?
There are many, but it might begin with understanding, forgiveness, and acceptance.
And those things will bring light into the darkness?
Yes. Because understanding will bring knowledge to the unknown. Forgiveness will bring a letting go of anger and hatred. And acceptance will allow the Other to be brought closer into that Love with a capital L.
And are you still afraid?
Yes, a bit, but far more at peace. Thank You.
And why the thank you? (said with a smile I could hear)
(With a responding smile) Because you have helped me to remember who I really am.
Elizabeth Crawford 12/22/2016
Notes: Today’s word prompt was prayer. I started off to write a short piece, but ended up with this. For me, prayer has ever been getting quiet and centered and then, entering into conversation. I know prayer is different for every individual. With Christmas just around the corner, I would hope that everyone would take a moment to pray for our world and all who live upon it.